your magic is working

21

2011-04-11T10:06:00.002+08:00

I don't think anyone reads this anymore.

So that's why i thought this will be a good place for me to place my thoughts down.

What does it feel like turning 21. I don't know. It's the same feeling i feel every year, very matter of factly. like yes i was brought into this world 21 years ago. This year though marks a significant moment in my life right? I guess 18 was big cause a lot of shit became legal, driving especially, but 21, it's just the final stage of adulthood. Full-fledged man typing this down now bitches. There's just been a lot going down this past year and i'm more tired than satisfied. or contented. or anything. Ever since the accident i've been feeling very fragile. yes i've moved on and yes life goes on but i can't escape the feeling that this all is just temporary. that like all else will come to an end. i'm a year closer to God. if only we aged backwards and all our loved ones come back to us. that would be worth celebrating.

We work and we strive for a little bit of money we spend on nice clothes and nice cars, nice holiday destinations. then we work even more to buy bigger things going to further places. then we die. and our children take whatever's left. you will be remembered for a moment. then forgotten just like our ancestors. this world is beautiful and evil. it gives you everything but takes it all away. live life to the fullest, but don't forget your purpose. cause one day it will all go away.

daryl is a bad girl!

2008-12-27T09:30:00.004+08:00

idealistic, passionate, foolish. can't blame you for having dreams. but what if reality doesn't match up? You lie in bed and wonder and think and it eats at you and you can't sleep. It consumes you and why should you care? But you do. I've given up on you. It's easier not to care. I hope you find your peace

happy birthday daryl! I'll always have your back

uncertainty

2008-12-26T18:58:00.002+08:00

It's hard to rebalance an unbalanced world.
Some doors are meant to kept shut. You open it, and it becomes too easy to walk through it a second time.

I hope you understand a bit of my stand. I DON'T KNOW YOU

2008-11-30T13:25:00.003+08:00

" hey. busy?"
"nope, wassup?"
"nth..."

umm alright? i'm sorry, but apparently this topic doesn't interest me. i was expecting something here really. and what i got was anti climax. there was nothing, to talk about. now i'm all up for making new friends. but frankly i couldn't remember your name until we started talking on msn and your name was right next to your face. but you don't know me and i don't know you. i don't know what you like and you don't know what i like. basically, i have no idea what you are about and i doubt you have any idea about me too. so this should be where we find out more about each other. but the conversations led nowhere. and i was NOT interested in what you had to say. most of the time people i talk to, the conversations will just die out. we say hi in school, give a polite nod of the head. sometimes you just don't relate. you never know whats going on in the other persons head. so it's what you perceive that you will believe to be true. and your perception of me was the most negative you can think of.

these are your opinions and you are entitled to them. let me check my message, "egoistic and rude" as you put it. let it be. I have nothing to prove to anyone. if we get to know each other better maybe your opinions might change. maybe not. for now, this is how it stands. look at the bright side khai, now you don't have to bother about things/people that bother you. and as for you, judgmental, impulsive and self-righteous, i wish you best of luck. if we never speak to each other again, i will not shed a tear. frankly because I DON'T KNOW YOU.

haha i can't believe you gave me "advice". well at least it added humour to my mundane life.

who am i without you now

2008-11-18T07:53:00.003+08:00

My heart is blue for you

2008-11-09T11:13:00.001+08:00

You are the sun
You are the only one
My heart is blue
My heart is blue for you
Be my, be my, be my little rock and roll queen
Be my, be my, be my little rock and roll queen

You are the sun
You are the only one
You are so cool
You are so rock and roll

Be my, be my, be my little rock and roll queen

TGSTTIABFMWCS:Thank God seriously that today is a beautiful Friday morning with clear skies.

2008-11-07T06:39:00.003+08:00

Its 640 AM right now. I always wanted to get into the habit of waking up early during the holidays. It really didn't happen but hey, at least now i'm doing better at it. Listening to Class 95fm every morning like i do on my way to school. Sports and Wellness starts at 8. I'll be going home after cause i've got driving at 420. I'm still thinking whether I should come back to school after driving at 6. Urgh man, i don't want to travel all the way back to clementi! but i have no choice, Stagewerkz is tomorrow. oh well. If I've got to do it I've got to do it.

I've finally went for floorball practice! I tell you my fitness is really bad right now. 2.4km and i'm dying. court training wasn't tiring suprisingly today. I didn't play that well but it's okay, after so long it's good to get the feel of the game back. GOAL: IVP team. haha damnit. I hope i get in. I don't want to malu after writing this post.

dangerous

2008-11-06T09:35:00.001+08:00

If I was the last man on earth
I would only take that girl, end of search

bcomm, i think

2008-10-30T14:29:00.001+08:00

OMG THIS IS SO BORING!!! ANGEL OF MERCY

Stagewerkz

2008-10-23T07:37:00.001+08:00

Hi guys Stagewerkz today and tomorrow at NP atrium. Do come down and support. I'll be singing Disease by Matchbox. It'll be much appreciated!

2008-10-16T11:27:00.000+08:00

“Relationship matters!

It starts with wanting to do something about it,
making small changes in the way we do things,
keeping them going and
allowing the big differences to happen.”
so says Captain Andrews.

2008-10-10T14:05:00.001+08:00

me and qahhar, me and floating platform field, me and bikes in pitlane

Because I want you- Placebo

2008-10-08T15:36:00.001+08:00

Fall into you
Is all I seem to do
When I hit the bottle
Cause I'm afraid to be alone
Tear us in two
Is all it seems to do

As the anger fades
This house is no longer a home
Don't give up on the dream
Don't give up on the wanting
And everything that's true
Don't give up on the dream
Don't give up on the wanting

Because I want you too
Because I want you too
Because I want you too
Because I want you
Because I want you

Stumble into you
Is all I ever do
My memory's hazy
And I'm afraid to be alone
Tear us in two
Is all it's gonna do

As the headache fades
This house is no longer a home
Don't give up on the dream
Don't give up on the wanting
And everything that's true
Don't give up on the dream
Don't give up on the wanting

Because I want you too
Because I want you too
Because I want you too
Because I want you
Because I want you

Because I want you too
Because I want you too
Because I want you
Because I want you

2008-10-05T23:42:00.000+08:00

AH FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK

chasing rainbows

2008-10-05T16:14:00.002+08:00

the past few days have been gereat! there's only one week left to school and i'm so gonna make sure i enjoy it. my goal of making it to the course this holiday was well, failure! hahaha shit i need to find some golf kakis.

well thursday i had like 4 sessions of driving so i was at ubi for the whole freaking day. haha thats something i'm never doing again! my back was aching like crap la but it was fun. my practical test is on the 19th of december GRR i hope i pass it first time i don't want to wait another 2 months for the test.

Friday i went to mj for the open house. it was cool i guess, went around met friends. But a lot of people are skipping school those bitches. went for dinner with qahhar and the 6th house comm. this is like the first time i'm meeting them and they are cool people! and they are winning events like the dance! gosh they are good! hahaha achieving what i never did. oh wells, good for them!

Saturday was visiting the whole day before i went to the gym and cycling with Afiq. we passed through siglap to east coast to the flyer before turning back! went home and watched soccer and united won blackburn 2-0! what makes things better is that arsenal slipped up against sunderland! so chelsea to cock up against villa and liverpool against man city and it'll be a fantastic weekend. i hope valencia does well against valladolid today.

time for celebrations

2008-09-30T18:40:00.002+08:00

oh hoh i just went cycling and i ended up at east coast yet again. i've got to find new places to cycle to seriously. but east coast was nice and windy, the sun was beautiful and i have a new found interest in fishing. I should really pick it up one day i think i'd be the best fisherman in the world. well its been a month that passed real fast. 30 days of fasting just went right by and i can really go on for another 30, it was all about getting used to i guess. after awhile it really isn't that bad. not that it was bad to begin with. the last break fast this year in 15 mins! what better place to do it then that indian shop at simpang. I forgot the name but the food there is heaven! I seriously have to learn how to make briyani and chicken tikka like they do! oh crap im finally getting hungry. so
to everyone and anyone, please forgive me for anything i've done wrong.
SELAMAT HARI RAYA! soon

2008-09-30T16:29:00.004+08:00

i think i sleep and watch too much tv. oh gilmore girls is on i'll blog again later

2008-09-29T00:24:00.002+08:00

These are my favourite player and clubs

Singapore GP

2008-09-28T22:19:00.002+08:00

The Singapore Grand Prix is finally over. It was a crazy race it has to be said. Much unheard of it Formula 1 racing. So when it came to the shores of Singapore, I'm sure a lot of people were unaware of what to expect. But I bet Ferrari and McLaren gained a lot of new supporters. Those people who have no idea on what F1 racing is all about but should be educated by this moment. Who would choose to support Vettel or Webber?

The biggest disappointment for me being a Ferrari fan has to be Massa. It was a disappointing night overall with Massa's pit stop accident, drive through penalty and Raikonens crash making sure Ferrari scores no point on this leg of the season.
It's crazy the Fuel Nozzle mistake. I was actually quite shocked to see the semi automatic lights to indicate when the car moves off. Bring back the lollipop man! All this errors are unnecessary! The lights aren't going to say that there's someone coming along in the pit lanes as well and that would have saved him the drive through penalty!
So now Hamiltons lead is extended to 7 and McLaren goes on top in the constructors championship. He must be pleased with the third place finish. With Massa finishing in 13th, he would have been happy to stroll in third and be happy with the 6 points. Frankly the whole season, Ferrari has been disappointing, they are on both ends of the spectrum in racing, they either win it or the car brakes down. Its really frustrating. Defending world champion Kimi Raikonen would have expectations this season which he failed to live up to leaving Massa the only threat to Lewis Hamilton. I've got to say that the iceman and Massa are quite boring drivers. I remember Schumacher and gosh he was so exciting! Even if something goes wrong and he ends up at the back of the pack he claws his way up. Looking at how Massa performed today with just 3 races remaining it sure pales in comparison the type of driver he is. Massa to me isn't the star forward, he's the supporting striker. Ferrari should consider other options. How about Alonso for next season? After coming back from 15th position to win the first ever Singapore Grand Prix and this being a night curcuit. Thats something I would be proud of! Put him in a faster car and watch the magic unfold! look at Hamilton, his overtaking move on David Coulthard was brilliant! you have to say thats the bravery and confidence of youth but hats off to him thats what makes a champion! In all fairness, Hamilton should go on to win the Title and Ferrari should win Constructors as they do have the best car. But if Massa is to win it would have to be a Hamilton crash and a Massa win to do it! of course i would prefer it working out this way. Prays for Hamilton to crash!
Ah well, can't get more exciting than this! Congratulations Alonso, Rosberg and Hamilton.
Oh the PM looked weird on the podium. And the trophy looks like a monster.

hi its been a long time!

2008-09-26T00:56:00.002+08:00

alright so its the holidays. 7 long weeks! i sometimes get the feeling, " gosh, i cant wait to get back to school." but then i would fall asleep again! either that or i swerve into traffic on MY NEW BICYCLE(imagine it like the price is right). then i would forget about it and go on. well i got the bicycle yesterday at tampines and cycled home. woosh i love my bicycle.
today i went to the isetan sale with my mom and sis! i couldnt find anything but underwear. but the line was so long i decided to go without underwear. i've got underwear at home the world is still save dont worry! went to ntuc with my mom after and then i went to fix my bicycle tire, which burst on the way home the previous day! okay so cycled til my ass begged me to stop and went home. i was a zombie until i finally broke my fast. this is probably like the most excitement in my holidays which is like 2 more weeks. gosh i wish it was longer!

2008-08-21T04:25:00.001+08:00

Jason and Daryl stumped by my brilliance

woah
rachel and jael taking in my awesomeness

Chee siang looking at art. while taking in my awesomeness
jason stumped by my awesomeness

2008-07-30T20:24:00.002+08:00

went to partyworld today with 4 other people- house of trust? after some very poor drawing. well it was, like how it would be! we were supposed to be there at 12, have lunch. SURE! well yeah, i tried studying yesterday with alex by the pool, we ended up talking about what is money? then just other random talking, went to the gym for a damn slack session then a walk out to raimah. we ordered food only to realise that we didnt bring any cash. good job, brilliant! so we just went back home. we'll pay for the food another day.

ah some things in life you cant control, things happen for a reason, no point in stressing out over what you cant control!

2008-07-29T09:55:00.000+08:00

2008-07-29T09:36:00.000+08:00

I think I'm drowning
asphyxiated
I wanna break this spell
that you've created

you're something beautiful
a contradiction
I wanna play the game
I want the friction

you will be the death of me
you will be the death of me

bury it
I won't let you bury it
I won't let you smother it
I won't let you murder it

our time is running out
our time is running out
you can't push it underground
you can't stop it screaming out

I wanted freedom
bound and restricted
I tried to give you up
but I'm addicted

now that you know I'm trapped sense of elation
you'd never dream of
breaking this fixation

you will squeeze the life out of me

bury it
I won't let you bury it
I won't let you smother it
I won't let you murder it

our time is running out
our time is running out
you can't push it underground
you can't stop it screaming out
how did it come to this?
ooooohh

you will suck the life out of me

bury it
I won't let you bury it
I won't let you smother it
I won't let you murder it

our time is running out
our time is running out
you can't push it underground
you can't stop it screaming out
How did it come to this?
ooooohh

2008-07-29T09:25:00.001+08:00

2008-07-18T08:33:00.000+08:00

Khai. says:
you're just not as cool as me
jiahui <3 KHAI.you are so childish! says:
YES YES

2008-07-06T09:54:00.002+08:00

okay so yesterday i went for supper with alex. afterwhich, we went to chill outside his house, on the pavement. so 2 units down was a condo, fucked up condo. there was this fella who came out, at about 2am, he was in a singlet and sarong and he was just standing in front of the condo, fucking staring at us. then he started walking towards us. okay so this is what i believe, never stare at people. you know to like prevent trouble or anything, BUT BLOODY HELL NEVER SMILE! just keep your eyes on that gap between your feet on the floor. shit fuck the guy is probably fucking gay or something. he walked past us, went another lets say 2 units down before turning into the side drain which leads to the hdb blocks. but before that he just stood at the side and stared at us. fuck you you fucking freaky fuck. so he went into the drain. after awhile, 2 of them came out from the drain! LIKE WTH! and they just stood there staring! FUCK YOU FUCKING IMMIGRANTS. WHAT THE FUCK MAN, i was bloody freaked out uh. i just went into Alexs house to like seek refuge for awhile. and when i left omg the most on edge i've ever been uh. and in my head it seemed my slippers were bloody noisy, getting attention, hand in pocket the whole time on a penknife. no shit, i was bloody spooked by those faggots. if they jumped in front of me and dropped their sarong, swipe, you're dead bitch! You don't mess with the Khai

its zxs birthday! on saturday

2008-06-24T22:24:00.003+08:00

WALAO BLOODY FUCKERS!! child rapist that is! wth man, im watching some show on channel 5. theres this one step father who rapped his step daughter when she was 10-12. like fuck you bitch! he got 30 years! seriously is that adequate? whats the point of being in jail! its not a crime against society. he fucking rapped the girl, the only one that lost from this is the girl, wth does she get? and in jail he just stays for 30 fucking years. he should fucking die! but then he wont feel the pain. his dick should be grated like cheese. then recover and boiled. then kill him.

on another note happy birthday zhixian on saturday! here's his birthday pictures with the class. yes, his birthday is this saturday.

ahahah, yeah. weeeeee

2008-06-21T01:41:00.001+08:00

Type your cut contents here.Name 20 people you can think of now :
1)loretta
2)daryl
3)brad pitt
4)sarah
5)sean
6)qahhar
7)rachel
8)huix
9)alex
10)spoon
11)winston
12)dominic
13)damian
14)jade
15)hazel
16)sonia
17)fazall
18)anmari
19)samantha catherine bok
20)emily

How did you meet #4 ?
Sarah. hmm, i was buying some food from the malay food stall when she turned around and said, "HEY!. you cool." i met her at hai sing catholic and spoke to her for the first time in sec 4. then we went to mj together.

What would you do if u never met #1?
hmm, i would be crying! i would feel incomplete. i wouldn't be doing this quiz thats for certain.

What if #9 and #20 dated?
Alex and Emily. hmm, hahaha why not. i'd celebrate with them! niceee

Will #6 and #17 date?
qahhar and fazall. ur hur hur hur! indian magic for sure. they make up for each others shortfalls, both from vs, and vs boys. ur hur hur hur. yes, they will date.

Describe #3.
hahaha my best friend. though he stole my girlfriend from me. but ah, i forgive him. i like his hair.

Is #8 attractive ?
huix? the incomplete huix?? hmm. haha! yeah why not! she has this husky voice. so manly. i like man. hmm. haha!

Describe #7 .
CHAM UH. VIOLENT! FOREVER PUNCHING LIKE WTF!?? SO YOU THINK YOU KUNG FU CLUB YOU COOL UH! YOU LUCKY YOU'RE A GIRL OTHERWISE IMMA WHOOP YOUR ASS FROM CLEMENTI BACK TO PASIR RIS!

Do you know any of #12 family members?
dominic? Yeah! His mom is pretty, his dad is charming, his sister is cute. he's umm, ayee.

What would you do if #18 confesses to you that he/she likes you?
hahaha really? hmm. well not saying it aint possible. i will come up with a plan to play it cool. ice ice baby! then i would break into my im a free spirit and i cannot be held back speech.

What language does #15 speaks?
the language of looooovvvveeeeee.

Who is #9 going out with?
alex. he is going out with. no one i think, oh i know who he went out with! and who he would have liked to go out with!

How old is #16 ?
sonia. shes 18, or 17? (damn i forgot her birthday!)

When was the last time you spoke to #13?
Damian. Online yesterday. face to face, tuesday. but that has to be the first in months. my hai sing sailor buddy.

Who is #2 favourite singer?
daryl, hmm. its britney bitch. tang tang tang tang tang tang tang tang, centre of atten.....

Would you ever date #4 ?
#4 eh. yes.

Would you date #1?
Loretta. YES I WILL SHE'S SO HOT, I'm a male, I'd definitely go for her.

Is #19 single?
i hope so. winks winks

What is #10 last name?
she's chinese so, tea. AHAR HAR

Would you ever be in a realtionship with #11?
yeah, he knows how to work a stick. if you know what i mean.

School of #3.
seriously. brad pitts not amusing me anymore

Where does #6 live?
in my heart.

What is your favorite thing about #5?
he's a loser and he makes me feel better about myself. KID DING. sean will do stupid things with me. like dropping out of jc and going to poly. boy we stupid. always there, attitude though.

Describe #20?
Emily. Responsible like a brick. which is actually quite funny! aye classy.

2008-06-07T14:50:00.001+08:00

2008-06-07T13:55:00.000+08:00

2008-06-07T13:44:00.001+08:00

Simona
You're getting older
Your journey's been
Etched on your skin

Simona
Wish I had known that
What seemed so strong
Has been and gone

I will call you up everyday Saturday night
And we both stayed out 'til the morning light
And we sang, "Here we go again"
And though time goes by
I will always be
In a club with you
In 1973
Singing "Here we go again"

Simona
Wish I was sober
So I could see clearly now
The rain has gone

Simona
I guess it's over
My memory plays our tune
The same old song

I will call you up everyday Saturday night
And we both stayed out 'til the morning light
And we sang, "Here we go again"
And though time goes by
I will always be
In a club with you
In 1973
Singing "Here we go again"

I will call you up everyday Saturday night
And we both stayed out 'til the morning light
And we sang, "Here we go again"
And though time goes by
I will always be
In a club with you
In 1973
Singing "Here we go again"

I will call you up everyday Saturday night
And we both stayed out 'til the morning light
And we sang, "Here we go again"
And though time goes by
I will always be
In a club with you
In 1973
Singing "Here we go again"

I will call you up everyday Saturday night
And we both stayed out 'til the morning light
And we sang, "Here we go again"
And though time goes by
I will always be
In a club with you
In 1973
Singing "Here we go again"

And though time goes by
I will always be
In a club with you
In 1973

2008-06-03T20:09:00.000+08:00

Its a new dawn

2008-06-03T19:58:00.002+08:00

Just came back from phillips house. was cooking with jane and him! to umm celebrate his and me birthday. kinda late but yup. i've not seen them for how long! there was some onion pasta and steak! then we were singing imagine and shit. imagine by george bush and stuff. and yeah cleaned up then headed off. okay well it all sounds simple uh but it was fun uh. man, i miss my past! hahaha but things are great right now, plus who says i have to leave my past behind me. so was singing the remedy earlier with phillip. found out that this song is for his friend who is terminally ill.

the lyrics like, "it kind of makes me nervous who says that you deserve this and what kind of god would serve this? "
and then theres, "I say the tragedy is how youre gonna spend the rest of your nights with the light on, so shine the light on all of your friends because it all amounts to nothing in the end."

its a sad story behind it but the song is just so upbeat its kinda ridiculous how happy it makes me feel. but i really like this song! so this is it.

I saw fireworks from the freeway
And behind closed eyes I cannot make them go away
'Cause you were born on the fourth of july, freedom ring
Now something on the surface it stings
I said something on the surface
Well it kind of makes me nervous
Who says that you deserve this
And what kind of god would serve this?
We will cure this dirty old disease
If you've got the poison I've got the remedy

The remedy is the experience.
This is a dangerous liaison
I say the comedy is that it's serious.
This is a strange enough new play on words
I say the tragedy is how you're gonna spend
The rest of your nights with the light on
So shine the light on all of your friends
When it all amounts to nothing in the end.

I won't worry my life away.

I won't worry my life away.

I heard two men talking on the radio
In a cross fire kind of reality show
Uncovering the ways to plan the next big attack
They were counting down the ways to stab
The brother in the be right back after this
The unavoidable kiss, where the minty fresh
Death breath is sure to outlast this catastrophy
Dance with me, because if you've got the poison,
I've got the remedy

The remedy is the experience.
This is a dangerous liaison
I say the comedy is that it's serious.
This is a strange enough new play on words
I say the tragedy is how you're gonna spend
The rest of your nights with the light on
So shine the light on all of your friends
When it all amounts to nothing in the end.

I won't worry my life away.

I won't worry my life away.

When I fall in love I take my time
There's no need to hurry when I'm making up my mind
You can turn off the sun but I'm still gonna shine and I'll tell you why

Because

The remedy is the experience.
This is a dangerous liaison
I say the comedy is that it's serious.
This is a strange enough new play on words
I say the tragedy is how you're gonna spend
The rest of your nights with the light on
So shine the light on all of your friends
When it all amounts to nothing in the end.

I won't worry my life away.

I won't worry my life away.

I won't and I won't and I won't

2008-05-29T22:19:00.001+08:00

[**gLoRiA**] says:
u know what this conversation is so crazyy that im smiling..but tears is running down cos there is dirt in my eye!
[**gLoRiA**] says:
i can't take it out!
[**gLoRiA**] says:
its damn irritating

Sengutuvans sad life story!

2008-05-29T22:19:00.000+08:00

school

2008-05-29T12:42:00.003+08:00

Hi, my name is Khairuddin Ismail. Im a first year student at Ngee Ann Polytechnic, Business Studies. I signed up for floorball, tennis, red cross, environmental rangers, ba comm and ba envoy. i would like to join toastmasters. My exams starts on saturday and im watching danny phantom. I should start studying. Bah, maybe after lunch. Thats all about school.

2008-05-18T21:46:00.001+08:00

2008-05-18T21:44:00.001+08:00

thats ernest. hahaha its just random.
and these people make me miss mj

I won't quit running away

2008-05-18T21:36:00.002+08:00

Don't lie and say that it's OK.
It's alright if there's nothing more to say.
So I'm running away.
I'm leaving this place.
Yeah, I'm running away.
I'm running away.

Don't tell me I'm the one to blame.
It's too late for you to make me stay.
No, I won't stay.
So I'm running away.
I'm leaving this place.
Yeah, I'm running away.
I'm running away.

And faster than you can follow me from this lonely place.
And farther than you can find me, I'm leaving
Yeah I'm leaving today.
And I, I'll never let you find me.
I'm leaving you behind with the past
No, I won't look back.
And I don't want to hear your reasons.
Don't want to hear you tell me why I should stay.

And try, and try to understand me
And try to understand what I say when I say I can't stay
I, I'm moving on from this place
I'm leaving and I won't quit running away.

I'm running away.
I'm leaving this place.
Yeah, I'm running away.
I'm running away.

haha im sick of myself honestly. the person i am, i look at myself, im blessed in so many ways and thats why i disgust myself. because im still a piece of shit. i wanna change for the better.
depends on how you look at the song, to me i just want to be a new person, a better person. things are gonna change. i hope.

2008-05-16T19:59:00.002+08:00

Me, Amanda, Bev, sean
Me and the guys celebrating our winning the title
Me and Young Sing

2008-05-16T19:53:00.001+08:00

GAH! today im a failure. anyhoots, yong wen got a floorball stick, yong wen bought an exel! na na na na na. i want to play floorball! floorball and tennis na na na na na

the comedy is that its serious

2008-05-11T19:40:00.002+08:00

I have no problem with self-esteem! hahaha really, seriously. i'm overconfident if not. AHHH!! im clueless in classes however theres this tiny voice at the back of my head that keeps saying, "its alright, you got it covered. you'll be able to do it when you study." Then when i fail, it goes, " its alright, you would have been able to do it if you studied." see, i should stop listening to that voice. it'll probably kill me one day. like when im on a pedestrian crossing and a car comes speeding towards me, it'll go, "no worries, its alright. this is my right of w.."

thats when i die. alright so much for not writing anymore. i think i'll continue writing my feelings.

TRUTH IS, I HOPE I DONT FALL INTO THE SAME CYCLE IN POLY. too many activites, too little studying. but hopefully i'll start moving come the time, and things might work out differently. im in tennis recreational, floorball, envoy, ba comm. i want to be in ambassadors, np strings and maybe ba society. see how things go. i hope i get the scholarship, though i dont think i will.

I saw fireworks from the freeway And behind closed eyes I cannot make them go away'Cause you were born on the fourth of july, freedom ring Now something on the surface it stingsI said something on the surface Well it kind of makes me nervous Who says that you deserve thisAnd what kind of god would serve this? We will cure this dirty old diseaseIf you've got the poison I've got the remedyThe remedy is the experience. This is a dangerous liaisonI say the comedy is that it's serious. This is a strange enough new play on wordsI say the tragedy is how you're gonna spend The rest of your nights with the light onSo shine the light on all of your friends When it all amounts to nothing in the end.I won't worry my life away.I won't worry my life away.I heard two men talking on the radio In a cross fire kind of reality showUncovering the ways to plan the next big attack They were counting down the ways to stab The brother in the be right back after thisThe unavoidable kiss, where the minty fresh Death breath is sure to outlast this catastrophyDance with me, because if you've got the poison, I've got the remedy The remedy is the experience. This is a dangerous liaisonI say the comedy is that it's serious. This is a strange enough new play on wordsI say the tragedy is how you're gonna spend The rest of your nights with the light onSo shine the light on all of your friends When it all amounts to nothing in the end.I won't worry my life away.I won't worry my life away.When I fall in love I take my timeThere's no need to hurry when I'm making up my mindYou can turn off the sun but I'm still gonna shine and I'll tell you whyBecauseThe remedy is the experience. This is a dangerous liaisonI say the comedy is that it's serious. This is a strange enough new play on wordsI say the tragedy is how you're gonna spend The rest of your nights with the light onSo shine the light on all of your friends When it all amounts to nothing in the end.

2008-04-30T23:34:00.000+08:00

This is probably my last post.
I'm now im np, business studies. cool eh? hahaha NO BODOH not cool at all. i kinda dragged this entry. AND SO IT IS JUST LIKE YOU SAID IT WOULD BE.
Take care people. Have a nice day. Thanks for being a part of my life

you make me smile please stay for awhile now

2008-04-26T12:30:00.004+08:00

OKAY! HEY HEY HEY! HARD GAY! umm, yes.

okay so its been a good week. or a good end to the week.
things that happened this week.
not really paying attention in lessons.
going for tennis, magnum, drama, flag football trials.
first practical driving lesson on thursday. drove around the circuit, the car stalled 4 times, but its all good!
therapy on friday, followed by the meeting up with the Miranda HC! we had ice cream and bought donuts from donut factory. gosh its been a long time. i missed out on colosseum, house rally, and house interviews! urgh! but with house interviews mean, you guys are gonna step down soon. mj was horrible but thankfully for you guys, things were a little more bearable. you guys have done a great job. next task at hand is A levels! im sure you guys will do well! you all aint slackers like me! im sure we wont stray apart. and hopefully yesterday wont be the last time we meet. Miranda 5th House Committee, forever and always a part of my life. til we grow old and complain about our children and their children.

okay so the plan is that today i study everything from the past week! and tomorrow i try to study everything for next week! hahaha confidentness. we'll see how it goes. okay heres bubbly, a very chirpy song that really lightens the mood, it somehow reflects how i feel at this moment, a very general term, but thats how i really feel, happy.

2008-04-13T00:45:00.001+08:00

KUAN says:
AHHAA ya cus im interested in the roti prata 40 yr old uncle at WP so i jus HAD to go thr to see him

2008-04-08T01:26:00.000+08:00

okay

2008-04-08T01:25:00.000+08:00

ARHAHAHAHAHA! khai is in a rocking mood! goodbye girl you know its only love!

2008-04-08T01:24:00.002+08:00

man school hasnt started and im already tired.
not because its 130, ive been tired the whole day!
np should shift to kembangan for my birthday.

2008-04-02T13:03:00.000+08:00

2008-04-02T12:55:00.002+08:00

so yesterday i went to watch the orphanage with the people from sigma funk. it was interesting! i guess, since the old lady hiding behind the door spooked me out. This the movie i would mute whenever i watched the commercials in the dark at night. Not what i expected at all. okay so after the movie the people went for ice cream at haagen dasz i think. but of course as usual i left early to go back to mj to play around! hahaha mike brought back memories from last year. just brought forward a year later. gah we need more guys!!

anyways, i was supposed to go out early this morning to extra abit at the house talk but i couldnt wake up. i hope it went well. i'll find out later when i go back there again. man i need a life. IM SO HOLLOW, IM SO HOLLOW, IM SO IM SO IM SO HOLLOW!

its a crazy world we're living in!

2008-04-01T00:57:00.003+08:00

so my day usually goes like this nowadays.

i wake up at around 10-12
goodnights rest indeed and i waste my day away!
i usually watch alot of tv.
i'm on the computer til i knock off after a good hard day of productiveness!

ever since i left school. ARGH now im going to be bounded by time-tables and responsibilities again!

well things been going on=orientation, so it goes like this, blah blah blah blah blah.
i got orientated! BAM! this is ngee ann. coloseum coming soon and cheerleading and running and stuff! will try to get back as much before i say hello to my fellow classmates.

2008-03-29T10:06:00.001+08:00

if i place another post i'd get rid of one song!

i want it that way.

2008-03-29T10:01:00.004+08:00

okay so i just came back from orientation! ya.
im gonna ask my mom if i can go out soon.
i slept from 4 yesterday til 7 in the morning. and im still sleepy.
i want to join a tough cca.
my knee is still bad.
things can only get better.
i want to hang things up in the room.
gosh its hot right now.
i feel like dancing.
i dont know how to get rid of the 2 songs i put on this page. or at least make it stop playing.i think my laptop is cool.

2008-03-22T00:19:00.001+08:00

Sarah says:
i think khai is cool

im serious thats what she said!

2008-03-20T22:50:00.000+08:00

[**gLoRiA**] says:
(L

the worst smiley in the world

2008-03-13T23:00:00.000+08:00

tanu says:
why must ghost always be women?!
tanu says:
are females THAT scary???!!!

YES YES!!!!

2008-03-11T12:00:00.001+08:00

everybody loves karaoke!

a conversation with jade

2008-03-10T22:46:00.000+08:00

Feels like sunshine, feels like rain says:
shhh dont tell anyone okay
Feels like sunshine, feels like rain says:
i can release silent farts

2008-03-10T22:32:00.000+08:00

Well this has got to die
I said, this has got to stop
This has got to lie down
With someone else on top

Well, you can keep me pinned
It's easier to tease
But you can't paint an elephant
Quite as good as she

And she may cry like a baby
And she may drive me Crazy
'Cause I am lately lonely

So why'd you have to lie?
I take it I'm your crutch
The pillow in your pillow case
Is easier to touch

And when you think you've sinned
Do you fall upon your knees?
Or d'you sit within your picture?
Do you still forget the breeze?

And she may rise, if I sing you down
And she may wisely cling to the ground
Cause I am lately, horny
So why would she take me horny?

What's the point of this song? Or even singing?
You've already gone, why am I clinging?
Well I could throw it out, and I could live without
And I could do it all for you
I could be strong
Tell me if you want me to lie
'Cause this has got to die

I said, this has got to stop
This has got to lie down, down
With someone else on top

You can both keep me pinned
'Cause it's easier to tease
But you can't make me happy
Quite as good as me

Well you know that's a lie

2008-03-09T16:31:00.001+08:00

Shots (on Goal)	19(9)	6(4)
Fouls	9	16
Corner Kicks	11	5
Offsides	0	1
Time of Possession	64%	36%
Yellow Cards	1	2
Red Cards	1	0
Saves	2	6

such was the freaking dominance of united. yet we lost.

Shots (on Goal)	7(3)	23(15)
Fouls	9	11
Corner Kicks	3	10
Offsides	1	4
Time of Possession	49%	51%
Yellow Cards	1	1
Red Cards	0	0
Saves	3	6

this is the stats for chelsea against barnsley. Chelsea lost

2008-03-01T22:34:00.002+08:00

You got wires going in
You got wires coming out of your skin
You got tears making tracks
I've got tears that are scared of the facts

Running down corridors, through automatic doors
Got to get to you, got to see this through
I see hope is here in a plastic box
I've seen Christmas lights reflect in your eyes

You got wires going in
You got wires coming out of your skin
There's dry blood on your wrist
Your dry blood on my fingertip

Running down corridors, through automatic doors
Got to get to you, got to see this through
First night of your life, curled up on your own
Looking at you now you would never know

I see it in your eyes; I see it in your eyes
You'll be alright
I see it in your eyes; I see it in your eyes
You'll be alright
All right

Running down corridors, through automatic doors
Got to get to you, got to see this through
I see hope is here in a plastic box
I've seen Christmas lights reflect in your eyes

Down corridors, through automatic doors
Got to get to you, got to see this through
First night of your life, curled up on your own
Looking at you now you would never know

2008-03-01T20:09:00.001+08:00

rise my minions says:
I HAVE A DREAM.... THAT ONE DAY THE MINORITIES WILL NEVER BECOME THE MAJORITY ... THAT ONE DAY, LITTLE BLACK CHILDREN WILL THROW STONES AT LITTLE WHITE CHILDREN

looking back at me

2008-02-24T13:01:00.003+08:00

there's nothing much left to do. another chapter closed. looking back there's nothing to be proud of, mixed emotions on how things could have been. Its over now and we can only look forward to what life may bring. looking forward doesn't reflect the true emotion of how i feel

2008-02-13T06:55:00.001+08:00

khai-leidoscope

2008-02-10T09:56:00.000+08:00

have khai with milk

2008-02-09T10:52:00.000+08:00

khai, the next frontier

2008-02-06T20:06:00.000+08:00

i think i need a catchphrase. and a theme song.

khai, the coolest after teh tarik

2008-02-06T19:50:00.000+08:00

okay today was chinese new year celebration. school ended early and miranda got 2nd for the performance! nice. but last for classroom decorations. so overall 4th. hmmm thanks to those who helped so much! im proud of the performance! the classroom decorations i cant say much. thanks to those who put in the effort!

went to bk after. walked around white sands before finally deciding as every freaking where was full some of the cny people, zul, jem and dan.
but afterwards went to my place with qahhar hafiy zul huiming and sylvia. thats pretty much the day!

HAPPY NEW YEAR! things can only get better

2008-01-26T15:30:00.000+08:00

ROAD RACE was today!
so overall position is like this
1st...
2nd...
3rd MIRANDA
4th...
5th...

Miranda still stuck in the centre! but it was a great performance overall! overall guys champion, wah got trophy, so cool! tied for 4th for the girls! and mascot, i forgot what position it was la but it was ME! hahahah got face paint, on my neck, hands, knees.... and face of course! it looked freaky i think. a lot of people were staring at me, i think i scared a kid and some old folks. they must have thought its time for them to g_. but difficult to wash uh! thanks to anna and qahhar for temaning me. damn proud uh today.

anyways, everything that happened this road race, could not have been possible without qahhar and sooboon! those 2 really worked hard. sometimes i think its a bit weird how those who work the hardest get the least credit. and those who work the least get the praise. life isnt fair sometimes. well those who dont work and get nothing, well you deserve nothing so good for you! then theres all those who suck up and talk bad about others. seriously pathetic. cny coming up, then soiree, then O2 orientation. oh and dance performance! all those events im looking forward to before school officially begins yet again! will miranda win the war? see how our mood uh.

2008-01-24T17:13:00.000+08:00

some people damn loser
i cant stand people who dont try
i love people who dont complain
goodluck and no worries to those o level students.
everything is fated. this is how its supposed to be for your best. think carefully, make the right choice that will determine your whole future. make the wrong one and die of poverty at 21. no pressure!

2008-01-24T06:54:00.000+08:00

I backed my car into a cop car the other day
Well he just drove off sometimes life's ok
I ran my mouth off a bit too much oh what can i say
Well you just laughed it off it was all ok

And we'll all float on ok
And we'll all float on ok
And we'll all float on ok
And we'll all float on any way well

Well, a fake Jamaican took every last dime with a scam
It was worth it just to learn some sleight-of-hand
Bad news comes don't you worry even when it lands
Good news will work its way to all them plans
We both got fired on the exactly the same day
Well we'll float on good news is on the way

And we'll all float on ok
And we'll all float on ok
And we'll all float on ok
And we'll all float on alright
Already we'll all float on
Now don't worry we'll all float on
Alright already we'll all float on
Alright don't worry we'll all float on

And we'll all float on alright
Already we'll all float on
Aliright don't worry even if things end up a bit to heavy
we'll all float on alright
Already we'll all float on
Alright already we'll all float on
Ok don't worry we'll all float on
Even if things get heavy we'll all float on
Alright already we'll all float on
Don't you worry we'll all float on
All float on

2008-01-21T23:37:00.000+08:00

Was it you who spoke the words that things would happen but not to me
Oh things are gonna happen naturally
Oh taking your advice I'm looking on the bright side
And balancing the whole thing
But often times those words get tangled up in lines
And the bright lights turn to night
Until the dawn it brings
Another day to sing about the magic that was you and me

Cause you and I both loved
What you and I spoke of
And others just read of
Others only read of the love, the love that I love.

See I'm all about them words
Over numbers, unencumbered numbered words
Hundreds of pages, pages, pages forwards
More words then I had ever heard and I feel so alive

You and I, you and I
Not so little you and I anymore
And with this silence brings a moral story
More importantly evolving is the glory of a boy

Cause you and I both loved
What you and I spoke of
And others just dream of
And if you could see me now
Well I'm almost finally out of
I'm finally out of
Finally deedeedeedee
Well I'm almost finally, finally
Well I'm free, oh, I'm free

And it's okay if you have go away
Oh just remember the telephone works both ways
And if I never ever hear them ring
If nothing else I'll think the bells inside
Have finally found you someone else and that's okay
Cause I'll remember everything you sang

Cause you and I both loved what you and I spoke of
and others just read of and if you could see now
well I'm almost finally out of.
I'm finally out of, finally, deedeeededede
well I'm almost finally, finally, finally out of words.

2008-01-19T09:31:00.000+08:00

How can I just let you walk away?
Just let you leave without a trace
When I stand here taking every breath with you (oooh-ooh)
You're the only one who really knew me at all

How can you just walk away from me
When all I can do is watch you leave
'Cause we've shared the laughter and the pain
And even shared the tears
You're the only one who really knew me at all

So take a look at me now
There's just an empty space
There's nothing left here to remind me
Just the memory of your face
Well take a look at me now
There's just an empty space
And you coming back to me is against the odds
And that's what I've got to face

I wish I could just make you turn around
Turn around and see me cry
There's so much I need to say to you
So many reasons why
You're the only one who really knew me at all

So take a look at me now
There's just an empty space
There's nothing left here to remind me
Just the memory of your face
Now take a look at me now
'Cause there's just an empty space
But to wait for you is all I can do
And that's what I've got to face
Take a look at me now
I'll just be standing here
And you coming back to me is against the odds
It's the chance I've got to face

Take a look at me now...

2008-01-18T19:08:00.000+08:00

come on khai

2008-01-15T11:59:00.000+08:00

MJ, the school where theres a lot of love. from everywhere that is powerless to make a difference.
MJ, the magnificent school that has risen so fast in 5 years to have a single digit intake point because the system is soo driven on academic results that theres barely any care for the students and their development as people.
MJ, the school where only academic performance matters.
MJ, the tertiary institution where everything is controlled by the teachers and students have no say.
MJ, the perfect place to learn about the world, how competitive and performance related it is.
MJ, you'll sure as hell learn a lot and do well if you follow the system.

After all, the role of a tertiary institute is to get you to a university right?

marcellus

2008-01-15T11:31:00.000+08:00

Go make your next choice be your best choice
And if you're looking for a boy with a voice, well baby I'm single
Are you in the mood for some dude, are you in the mood to be subdued
Or would you rather just mingle?
Let's get set then to go then and let us jet set we'll be like the jetsons
You can be Jane my wife. Should I marry Jane tonight?

I would if I could. I'd do most anything spontaneously.

Or we can keep chilling like ice cream filling
We can cool in the gang if you'd rather hang
Ain't no thing. I can be lugubrious with you.
I got no ifs ands ors no wits or whats about it
But this place is getting crowded and my house is two blocks away
Or maybe closer

I would if I could. I'd do most anything spontaneously.
You know I would, if I could. I'll do anything spontaneously.

If you could be nimble, you'd have it simple just like me.
So go on and try it, do not deny yourself your freedom.

So step on up to the plate get a date with mraz
See you better act fast because supplies they never
Now did you knowE this is limited time offer
So go make your mind up before our times up
You better start winding it up because the party's almost over
(and if you should know girl, go a little bit lower now)

see how I would, if I could. I'd do most anything spontaneously.
You know I would, and I can prove it. I'll do anything spontaneously.

i guess image is very important. how people look at you. i guess how people remember you is the most important thing. have you made a difference in someones life. have you made someone smile. have you been part of something great. well thats all perspective. but it matters greatly to me. the bigger picture sucks. theres always something you care about that you have to give up. especially when you've put in so much effort and emotion into it. its very much sentimental. and everyday it gets harder to part. but the things people do sometimes places everything into perspective. for one thing, you can always be replaced. and all those effort and emotions you put in go unappreciated. not looking for a key to the city, or a grand celebration. mere credit, a simple gesture that its been taken notice. sometimes it doesnt come from the people that you would die to hear from. but its okay, as long as people understands the effort. the memories in good and bad times keeps us united. for one and all, never stop caring. the smallest of things, do matter to some. even if you're not obliged to do anything. the bigger picture is always more important, though more painful. now i need to go study.

2008-01-13T23:07:00.000+08:00

2008-01-10T23:47:00.000+08:00

I think vulgarities is a habit i should try to kick out!

a lot has happened, mixed emotions, what has been going on.

orientation has been going on. guess what house? black of cause! miranda is what we call it. good job everyone. the most important thing is that you guys enjoy yourselves! ogms and ogls. you all have been fantastic! if ive offended anyone i apologise. its been somewhat confusing i might say. but things will only get better from here! All's Black at O2!

2008-01-01T16:27:00.001+08:00

touch me not with your hands but so that i feel you
hug me not with your hands but within your soul

2008-01-01T16:15:00.000+08:00

something my mom said earlier gave me much to think about. my sister too. the reality is that as you grow up you will lose friends. simply because there's no time. sometimes people come into your life for a reason, even if just for a moment. you cant help but to lose touch of people you once cared for. well the new year is here. i thank everyone i've met this year. every experience every moment shaping who am today. then theres the people who stay by you through everything. i hope we dont lose touch.

Tiredness fuels empty thoughts
I find myself disposed
Brightness fills empty space
In search of inspiration
Harder now with higher speed
Washing in on top of me
So I look to my eskimo friend
I look to my eskimo friend
I look to my eskimo friend
When I'm down, down, down.

Rain it wets muddy roads
I find myself exposed
Tapping doors, but irritate
In search of destination
Harder now with higher speed
Washing in on top of me
So I look to my eskimo friend
I look to my eskimo friend
I look to my eskimo friend
When I'm down, down, down.

things will be different

2007-12-27T22:13:00.000+08:00

bye bye baby, baby goodbye

what a crazy year its been! and coincidentally the first year in jc. if i could turn back time uh! GOSH, that would be damn good. there would be so many things i wouldnt have done. but i guess if i hadnt done it then i wouldnt have learnt my lesson. so i guess it should be if only i could time travel.

THANKS TO ALL THE OGLS THAT HAVE COME DOWN TO HELP WITH THE PREPARATIONS FOR ORIENTATION!! WITHOUT YOUR HELP, EVERYTHING WOULD NOT HAVE BEEN POSSIBLE! LETS ENJOY THIS ORIENTATION, FOR ALL OUR HARDWORK. LETS GO MIRANDA!!

2007-12-24T13:22:00.000+08:00

i hate facebook

a sec 2 class outing

2007-12-21T22:33:00.000+08:00

hey thanks for the memories

she looks just like an old friend now

2007-12-15T00:47:00.001+08:00

-went for friday prayers
-went to dads house to play wii
-went to watch movie with dad and sis
-went to eat supper

i think my day is complete! :)

and life continues

2007-12-11T18:12:00.000+08:00

good evening listeners welcome to morning fever. here with you this evening, my name is khairuddin ismail and i will be with you until the sun sets. There has been a lot happening in the world of me but before i get to that lets start this session with a little music. This is Pocket Full Of Stars by the Nine Black Alps

I don't know who you are
And I don't know where you've been
Always out on your own
Always down on your knees

Now you know
I need a miracle
A star-crossed lover
An arrow in my heart
I need a rainy day
and an endless summer
A pocket full of stars

Maybe you're just like me
You see the faces in the crowd
Looking down at their feet
Never once make a sound

Now you know
I need a miracle
A star-crossed lover
An arrow in my heart
I need a rainy day
and an endless summer
A pocket full of stars

Now you know
I need a miracle
A star-crossed lover
An arrow in my heart
I need a rainy day
and an endless summer
A pocket full of stars

well yesterday i went to floorball for the first time in months i guess! 2 months since operation, probably 4 months since the last time i went for training. oh gosh i suck. hahaha not only that, im weak like nobodies business! no suprise i'm straining right now! but i enjoyed it! okay so today, still straining from yesterday. went to sgh for therapy and everything went rather smoothly. okay take note of this date. 4-01-2008. okay thats the date of my strength test and hopefully im strong enough to move onto the next stage of the therapy. shut up i'll let you know what it is once i get there. rushed through therapy and went to centrepoint with my mom. shopped abit and grabbed lunch before heading home. its been a long time since i went out with my mom. i feel quite bad about it. things can only get better from here i guess.
okay im going for a swim later. floorball tomorrow.YES AH!

busy busy

2007-12-04T11:34:00.000+08:00

okay 4th december noalot of things been happening. lets see, 29th was music for life, 30th went to ecp to celebrate irsyads birthday, 1st went to meet floorball guys at night to meet for marathon, 2nd marathon, 3rd sarahs birthday celebration, TODAY, apac briefing at WOODLANDS later at 5. opac til 9th though i dont think im involved on all days. jonas birthday on the 6th. THERAPY on the 11th. and ive not been doing my exercises so there's no way i can shift up to 15 pounds so i better start on it today otherwise im in for a whole lot of scolding when therapy comes on the 11th. 4th, theres still time to set my plan in motion. i believe in it but not many others do. its gonna be damn tough and i'll probably need a lot of discipline to get through with it. especially when next year starts. i'm still deciding whether i should do it. i dont know whether its a good idea. oh well its up to me to decide.

2007-11-27T20:21:00.000+08:00

quite confused at the moment. being retained was really a shock to me. it may come as a suprise to many but its true. i fooled around in j1, but i never expected it to lead to this. In fact, i might even be kicked out. im not sure whether i can even stay in mj. its a bitter pill to swallow. im not good at expressing many emotions so if you think i dont care about it you're wrong. im hurting. dont judge me by what you see. i know people out there do. im not going to rant on about being depressed or suicidal. the truth is i dug my own grave and ive got to face the consequences ive put myself in. if i was given a second chance though, only God knows i mean it this time.

2007-10-27T23:47:00.000+08:00

You got me lifted shifted higher than the ceiling
ooo wee its the ultimate feeling
you got me lifted feeling so gifted
sugar how you get so fly?
sugar sugar how you get so fly?

dont dream its over

2007-10-27T09:22:00.000+08:00

Hey now, hey now
Don't dream it's over
Hey now, hey now
When the world comes in
They come, they come
To build a wall between us
We know they won't win

KUKU

2007-10-26T01:14:00.000+08:00

man today must be the most fun day of school yet. a little bit of PW, jonas, fazall, sarah, azy walked past and all of a sudden im just crapping away in class. went for lunch after, came back, and everyone was playing music in the hall. then i went down to the airport with MIRANDA HOUSE COMM like whoo! then went out with some guys afterwards( Fahmi, Dean, Jonas, Sarah, Irsyad, Wan, Fiy) so like overall it was a damn fun day. plus the past 2 days, been damn fun too. if school was always like this, i never would want to leave!

2007-10-24T01:23:00.000+08:00

Oh no, I see,
I spun a web, it's tangled up with me,
And I lost my head,
The thought of all the stupid things I said,
Oh no what's this?
A spider web, and I'm caught in the middle,
I turned to run,
The thought of all the stupid things I've done,

I never meant to cause you trouble,
And I never meant to do you wrong,
And I, well if I ever caused you trouble,
Oh no, I never meant to do you harm.

Oh no I see,
A spider web and it's me in the middle,
So I twist and turn,
Here I am in my little bubble,

Singing, I never meant to cause you trouble,
I never meant to do you wrong,
And I, well if I ever caused you trouble,
Although I never meant to do you harm.

They spun a web for me,
They spun a web for me,
They spun a web for me.

this entry will self-distruct.

2007-10-23T23:54:00.000+08:00

This is Sarah.
She is from MJ. I met her at HSC though. I never really knew her until i dont know when. Now, shes my close friend. I think shes a good dancer. But shes more than just a dancer, shes a bright girl, a great friend and i'd rather do nothing more than speak to her all night long. Dont worry about A levels my dear friend, you'll be able to do it when the time comes. Til then, enjoy the journey. I'll always be there for you, whether i stay in mj or not. Now you happy?

you should be sleeping!

2007-10-20T00:57:00.000+08:00

eh eh eh go to sleep!

2007-10-18T18:07:00.000+08:00

When the sun shines
We’ll shine together
Told you I'll be here forever
Said I'll always be your friend
Took an oath
I'mma stick it out 'till the end
Now that it's raining more than ever
Know that we still have each other
You can stand under my Umbrella
You can stand under my Umbrella

listening to this guy play umbrella on the piano! it sounds damn cool i tell you. okay so news broke, im either getting retained or out of mj. i had to say i was sad la, who wouldnt be. i guess thats it for my captaincy this year. kinda sad i wont be spending all those moments with the house comm anymore. there were great times. im determined to do something about this la. ive wasted one year of my life. i dont want to go over the process again. where should i go? what should i do? should i repeat mj again and top the level? or should i go to poly i dont really know. things will work out. how it'll turn out i dont know

2007-10-17T23:37:00.000+08:00

Honey, It's been a long time coming
And I can't stop now
Such a long time running
And I can't stop now
Do you hear my heart beating
Can you hear that sound
Cause I can't help thinking
And I don't look down

And then I looked up at the sun and I could see
Oh the way that gravity turns for you and me
And then I looked up at the sky and saw the sun
And the way that gravity pulls on everyone, on everyone

Baby, It's been a long time waiting
Such a long, long time
And I can't stop smiling
No I can't stop now
And do you hear my heart beating
And can you hear that sound
Cause I can't help crying
And I won't look down

And then I looked up at the sun and I could see
Oh the way that gravity turns on you and me
And then I looked up at the sun and saw the sky
And the way that gravity pulls on you and I, on you and I

Can you hear my heart beating
Can you hear that sound
Cause I can't help crying
And I wont look down

na na na na na na na na na na na na na hey jude

2007-10-13T19:36:00.000+08:00

ive been stuck at home and if you dont know why SHAME ON YOU! but yes ive been stuck at home so my days have been filled with whose line, martha stewart, ellen and the ever lovable tyra banks. in just kidding, tyra banks irritates the shit out of my rectum. so like, i went for the whole drama after the exams. so ive got a super duper long mc til next week. okay so its not that long but ya. results are out, i dont really know mine but i know i didnt do well. its not even too well, i just didnt do well. i dont know whether im going up or not. im sure there's alot of other people in the same situation. and the last thing we want to hear is that its okay. its not okay cause those who say its okay are usually safe. being retained or kicked out is not okay. but its not the end of the world. sure its disappointing but dont think too much about it, take it a step at time and dont worry. instead of wasting your day thinking about it, theres so many other things that can be done. but, its easier said. to everyone out there, i dont want to see you guys sad. whatever it is i'll always be a call away.

to all the o level people, study hard this final few days. do not waste it. please note its stupid to not be studying at this moment. i wish you all well.

2007-09-25T18:39:00.000+08:00

You called me after midnight,
must have been three years since we last spoke.
I slowly tried to bring back,
the image of your face from the memories so old.
I tried so hard to follow,
but didn't catch the half of what had gone wrong,
said "I don't know what I can save you from."

I asked you to come over, and within half an hour,
you were at my door.
I had never really known you,
but I realized that the one you were before,
had changed into somebody for whom
I wouldn't mind to put the kettle on.
Still I don't know what I can save you from.

ah my head hurts and i kinda think im super sleepy! which sucks considering i need to study tonight for chem tomorrow! i kinda realised that napping is an extremely bad idea for me cause i seldom do ever wake up after the half hour i intended to. so i end up sleeping til morning and you know, if you over sleep you get damn tired! so yup it added to the overall fatigue. im serious about the over sleeping bit. okay there's chem tomorrow after the noon and maths on thursday before i end the school year!( plus pw and stuff) which means this could be my last examination in mj. or i could be posting this again come next year! or this could be about a levels next year! ahahaha so many options to consider! im so happy! but i hope its the last option though.

been thinking about post jc life. i mean after jc 1 life. there's so many things to look forward to next year that i'd be damn sad to not be a part off! but there's also the part of finishing tertiary education as quick as possible. i mean like mr patrick said, if i wanted a 3 year course i would have gone to MI. ive got a headache did i say?

im so looking forward to the end of the week! i need money to spend

2007-09-24T04:14:00.000+08:00

my blog is so damn boring!
good news bad news?
the good news is the UNITED WON CHELSEA 2-0!! so before you misled blues supporters go blaming the sending off let me say that united dominated even before the sending off so HAH!
okay so New Zealand beat Scotland 40-0! which means they finish first in their group so yup!

the bad news, forget the bad news la! its not important. like its only promos right?
which is in3 hours plus. i cant seem to sleep, im wide awake and not studying!

so anyways, i went to study today at the airport with jonas and yongwen. sarah & sam studied til they had to leave for tuition! so thats pretty much it. how interesting right? just like my blog

shiver

2007-09-21T10:06:00.003+08:00

So I look in your direction
But you pay me no attention, do you?
I know you don't listen to me
'Cos you say you see straight through me, don't you?

And on and on
From the moment I wake, to the moment I sleep
I'll be there by your side; just you try and stop me
I'll be waiting in line, just to see if you care

Oh…
Did you want me to change?
Well I'd change for good
And I want you to know that you'll always get your way
I wanted to say…

Don't you shiver
Shiver
Sing it loud and clear
I'll always be waiting for you

So you know how much I need you
But you never even see me, do you?
And is this my final chance of getting you

And on and on
From the moment I wake, to the moment I sleep
I'll be there by your side; just you try and stop me
I'll be waiting in line, just to see if you care

Oh…
Did you want me to change?
Well I'd change for good
And I want you to know that you'll always get your way
I wanted to say…

Don't you shiver
Don't you shiver
Sing it loud and clear
I'll always be waiting for you

Yeah I'll always be waiting for you
Yeah I'll always be waiting for you
Yeah I'll always be waiting for you, for you
I will always be waiting…

And it's you I see but you don't see me
And it's you I hear so loud and so clear
I sing it loud and clear
And I'll always be waiting for you

So I look in your direction
But you pay me no attention
And you know how much I need you
But you never even see me